For the one I love

You are more than I deserve.

You stand beside me when I'm weak.

You know my thoughts without words.

You say what I mean before I speak.

You often hold my hand.

You are always there.

You wipe my tears when I cry. 

You run your hand all through my hair.

You accept me for who I am.

You always choose to stay.

You are my love, my everything.

You, i will love each and every day.

The smile I wear

Its easier to pretend everything is fine,

than to acknowledge the problems of mine.

Its that moment I hear your name,

it sends me into the past, remembering the shame.

Its the fight or flight feeling when i smell that scent,

memorized by all the time we spent.

Only at night will I let you in,

Remembering your charming grin.

Those nights I longed for your touch,

Knowing it would never be enough.

No longer will you be allowed,

No longer will you be allowed.

Its easier to pretend everything is fine, 

than to acknowledge the problems of mine.

That Boy

Stay with me tonight, 

don't leave me alone.

Two shadows standing beside the door,

You know, I could never want you more. 

And I'm not sure what this might be,

When i close my eyes, you're what I see.

I hold my breath as you move in,

I taste your lips and feel your skin..

But when I wake, I know the truth,

he could never fall for you..

Unnoticed and on the Shelf

I can't. I feel like I'm  not good enough.
Not good enough for myself,
let alone others.
I feel judged,
by myself and by those around me.
I feel as though I am a book.
My spine stiff and unread
waiting for an avid reader longing to turn the page.
The spine may be unbroken,
the edges worn and torn,
but no one has taken the time to open the book
an break through the rough chapters that are the beginning.

You

You think you can outsmart me,
you think you can win,
with your conniving words,
beating around the bush.
You think you can intimidate me,
you think i'm not strong,
not smart enough to see you coming.
But you cant intimidate me,
i'm stronger than I let on,
and I had you pinned the moment
you let your true colors show.

The ceiling

You think you can trust someone,

the doors close in,

and all you see is the ceiling.

The ceiling of the kitchen, car, bedroom.

the moment you choose to forget, 

the moment that haunts your dreams.
Threatening to destroy where you have come,

and all you see in the ceiling.

the moment you realize what happened,

the moment you blame yourself.

the ceiling becomes the enemy.

Why look at the ceiling..

Why blame yourself for actions not of your own...

Why do we allow others to step in and take what is ours..

our possessions, our love, our choices. 

Today is the 15th

this is my first blog post, Thanks Lukas :)